Pornography Addiction Recovery: Making a Difference

Pornography Addiction Recovery: Making a difference is the key.

Purpose Recovery
You Make a Difference: Purpose Recovery

Making a Difference

Purpose Recovery

“When I had purpose, I found the strength to resist porn”–Dale

    When is this ever going to stop?

    I felt a strong craving—an ache in the center of my chest—to view pornography.

    I thought I had conquered it.

    I’ll never forget the moment when I poured my soul out to God. I wept, repented and committed my life to God. It was a spiritual washing. I stopped.  

   But now, why am I feeling this way? Why do I want to look at porn? All the pain I’ve suffered, why am I even considering pornography. 

    A thought drifted into my mind: Out of sync.

    What’s that suppose to mean?

    I sat in front of my PC, pondering. A porn site hit my mind. My arm muscles tightened and my chest constricted. I clicked Internet Explore. Breathing became short and shallow. My computer went online.

    Out of sync … 

    I pushed away from the desk and left the room.

    Reasoning: In-Sync, cylinders firing … perfect timing

    Feeling the pull, the image of the porn site pushed back into my thoughts.

    “God, what’s this about? How can I stop this?”

    I went back to my room. My eyes lighted on the book. I turned to the Divine Purpose section. Reading what I had written about my life, I realized where my greatest joy came. This was the option I needed … to resist porn.

    The feelings for porn diminished some.

    I closed my eyes and relived a special time in my life where I was helping a small group of people. The incredible response I received. The joy I experienced. How it changed my view of who I am. Warm feelings started in the center of my chest, thanksgiving swept through me. I rejoiced for the gift God gave me.

    Then, I contrasted the emotion of gratitude with the emotions associated with pornography. I imagined porn back in my life. I experienced feelings of severe loss.

    It felt like mourning the death of a love one. I quickly shifted my thoughts back to gratitude.

    The craving to view porn was gone. I went back to my PC. I clicked off of the internet.

Published by: curepornaddiction

In the year 1971 I became a store manager at age 19. I discovered I had a gift for mentoring. I gave one on one coaching, instruction and teaching with ease. And, I loved it. However, I had a problem that held me back from achieving my full potential. I was addicted to porn. When I was going through my puberty years in life, I found pornography (adult magazines) in my Dad's closet. I was hooked. I had my ups and downs throughout my life: Ups, when I was off of porn and using my gift: and, Downs, when I was using porn. Porn captured my attention, holding me back. I found the secrets to breaking free from porn. Like anyone else, I have to work at keeping my emotions positive, every day, to stay free. Limiting emotions--fear, doubt, hate, lust, sloth, pride, any emotion that kills joy. Joy is the ultimate weapon against porn. You have it; porn loses its hold on you. I dedicate this blog to those who are looking for ways to end pornography in their life. To Your Peace, Power and Plenty, Dale P.S. The picture above is not me. The photo represents all families free from pornography.

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