Pornography; Masturbation; Satisfied

I awoke in the morning with intense energy in my pelvic region.  I felt like I had to masturbate to relieve the energy; yet, I knew the consequences. For the next two weeks, I would be hypersensitive, impulsive and want more of the same pleasure which leads to pornography.

I prayed and meditated on what I wanted to do with my life. Masturbation has a way of making me feel fearful and not pursue my goals. I kept meditating on how I wanted to be a virtuous man living in a state of purity. However, thoughts of masturbation were present. I finally got out of bed. I went to the kitchen to make coffee.  As I walked to the kitchen, my genitals relieved themselves, not an orgasm, but simply released some sperm.

I thought: That was unusual. It was better than losing all that energy from masturbating and then having to carry around negative energy for the next two weeks.

I felt satisfied.

Thanks,

Dale