Masturbation, Pornography, Relief

This morning, when I awoke, my entire body felt as if it was arouse.

A strong urge to masturbate came upon me.

I resisted masturbation for a time, and then I started. However, I couldn’t follow through with it.

Right now, there are many good things happening in my life.

If I masturbate, I become egocentric.

Everything is about me.  I am hypersensitive. I easily get hurt feelings.

I become fearful when I need to make important sales calls.  Normally, I do not have any fear.

I become anxious and depressed for two to three weeks afterwards.

I thought about pornography, but porn is like an anatomy class where women are abused by sex crazed men.  Perhaps, a pornography addiction recovery has happened to me. I did not want to view it.   And…

I could not masturbate, either.

Now, I feel relief.

Thanks!