Pornography: Am I a Sex Addict?

I did not think so; I did not consistently look at porn.

I went for a time without sliding. After four to eight weeks, I would sit in front of the computer viewing pornography. Having feelings of despair and self-loathing, I would stop looking at porn and masturbating, one more time.

However, masturbation worked its way back into my routine; weekly, daily, and then multiple times per day. I constantly thought about sex. In secret, viewing porn followed my compulsive behavior.

When I was with my family, I was irritable and critical. Just having a simple disagreement with her, I became harsh with my spouse. Whatever hit my brain, I immediately spoke my thoughts without regards to other people’s feelings.

My behavior was secretive and accompanied by lies and denial. I desired greater sexual thrills. I was ashamed of what I wanted to do to satisfy my cravings. I felt powerless. I could not manage my sexual desires.

Am I a sex addict?

I am.

I cannot stop on my own. I need help.

I found a 12 Step program.

Now, I am pursuing healthy sex.