Pornography: 100 Ways to Answer one Question; What’s Your Way?

“I am seeking, I am striving, I am in it with all my heart” — Vincent Van Goth

The One Question: Am I into living life with all my heart, or do I strive to satisfy my sexual addiction?

After I read Van Goth’s quote, I had to answer the question.  A hundred people could answer the question 100 different ways.

For me, here is my short answer, well, not entirely short.

Throughout the years, approximately 50, I tried to use my talent. Yes. I said, “Try.”  Trying was all I could do because my sexual addiction robbed me of the positive energy that I needed to perform my talent with all my heart.

My addiction grew worse and worse.

I gave my heart to videos and pictures that offered me no love; young girls with young or older men, women and men, women with women, men with men, or humans with whatever.

Disgusting images that I once thought were impossible for me to view turned cravings into an obsession.

I became impoverish and empty.

I felt hopeless.  The pain was intense.

I then prayed for help.

“O Lord, for I call to you all day long. Bring joy to your servant, for you, O Lord, I lift up my soul” (Recovery, 1993, Psalm86:6 & 7).  I felt his compassion. I experience hope.

Now, I am in recovery with all my heart.  Recovery is a daily habit of good choices

God, you enrich my life with peace. You, O God, are “an expansive spiritual experience” (Booth, 2009, p. 383).

References

Booth, L. (2009). Say yes to your sexual healing; daily meditations for sex addiction. p. 383. Deerfield Beach; FL: Health Communications.

I am in it with all my heart Van Gogh Quote 8×10 by MomentsOfArt. (n.d.). Retrieved from https://www.etsy.com/listing/178891961/i-am-in-it-with-all-my-heart-van-gogh.

Recovery Devotional Bible, (1993). Psalm 86:6 & 7. New International Version (NIV), 1984. Grand Rapids; MI: Zondervan.