Do you ask yourself why you can’t overcome pornography addiction and
You go to a church, synagogue, or mosque?
After the umpteenth (thousandth) time of relapsing, I realized that my way did not work. Considering the path that I was sliding down, pornography addiction was going to destroy me. However, I took the first step. As I stated in the last post, I surrendered to God. I felt peace. I did all the right things or so I thought.
My addiction eventually became worse and worse with some good slipped into the middle. After my attempted suicide, I saw a psychiatrist and three therapists; not at the same time. I chose one therapist specializing in sexual addictions.
My therapist recommended that I attend Sex Addicts Anonymous (SAA) meetings. SAA was a spiritual program, not religious, serving one another in the group.
The meetings reminded me of a parable about a Zen Master. One day, he was chopping wood and drawing water.
He said, “I chop wood! I draw water!”
What does this have to do with anything? Perhaps, the Zen Master realized that his spirituality was not meditation and prayers, but service, carrying wood and water to others.
In SAA, Step Two: “Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity” (2012).
Meetings are not religious activities. The group shares experiences. In the process, sex addicts discover a higher power greater than themselves.
They feel the spiritual experience of like-minded people receiving and giving help. (SAA group is not the only sexual recovery support group.)
My understanding of the Higher Power will grow with time and experience. In the process, I have a sense of certainty. I gain sanity during the recovery process.
Psalm 121:7 & 8
7 The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.
8 The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore (N. d., KJV).
Psalm 121:7 & 8. (N. d.) The Holy Bible; King James Version. Public Domain.
Sex Addicts Anonymous (SAA). (2012). Our program; the twelve steps of SAA. Houston; TX.