Day 16 – What next?

So after my near-fap experience of Saturday I had a better Sunday.  I was focussed and acting up never crossed my mind.  Don’t get me wrong – the triggers were there but instead of self gratification I chose to wait until my partner was ready and we had sex.  It wasn’t earth shattering but we both had fun.

Today unfortunately I feel so terribly ill (nothing to do with near relapse, just haven’t shaken off a cold).  I have no desire to act up and for once the chaser effect is nowhere to be seen.  Most likely because I feel so bloody terrible.  Duvet day with very little to do but catch up on reading and probably have a sleep.

I do look at my journal calendar and think, a week today will be 23 days.  That’ll be such an achievement.  Can I stay away from porn totally up to that…