Pornography; Overwhelming Feelings Humbled Me to Change

Four hundred and ninety-four days ago, I attempted suicide.

That day opened my eyes to how dreadfully fast my life had careened out of control.

However, for more than 40 years, I tried to break the porn habit.

I hated my pornography addiction.

In the beginning, I just looked at few porn sites; yet, little by little, I was drawn into more and more cravings for porn content.

A case in point, I conned myself into thinking that my choices did not matter.  I lost sight of the principle called integrity.

Overwhelming Feelings from Being Trapped

My habits trapped me.  I thought I had power over my life; yet, unwavering principles control my destiny.  I chose the direction when I used pornography for sexual gratification.

Above all, I was an arrogant fool to devote my life to pornography.

Warning of danger, distress crawled across my body.

Uncovering my true self, I knew that I had a problem; my sordid behaviors were glaring at me.

Misery humbled me.

Because porn cravings were too powerful for me, I trusted in the Higher Power to find recovery.

Four hundred and ninety-four days later, I experience feelings of wholeness.


Isaiah 57:14 – 21

Joy Is One of Many Feelings from Fidelity.



Published by: curepornaddiction

In the year 1971 I became a store manager at age 19. I discovered I had a gift for mentoring. I gave one on one coaching, instruction and teaching with ease. And, I loved it. However, I had a problem that held me back from achieving my full potential. I was addicted to porn. When I was going through my puberty years in life, I found pornography (adult magazines) in my Dad's closet. I was hooked. I had my ups and downs throughout my life: Ups, when I was off of porn and using my gift: and, Downs, when I was using porn. Porn captured my attention, holding me back. I found the secrets to breaking free from porn. Like anyone else, I have to work at keeping my emotions positive, every day, to stay free. Limiting emotions--fear, doubt, hate, lust, sloth, pride, any emotion that kills joy. Joy is the ultimate weapon against porn. You have it; porn loses its hold on you. I dedicate this blog to those who are looking for ways to end pornography in their life. To Your Peace, Power and Plenty, Dale P.S. The picture above is not me. The photo represents all families free from pornography.

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