As you analyze each word of this post, you will shortly feel a sense of passion.
Have you ever noticed yet that when you try to quit porn, you always seem to be missing one ingredient to make recovery work for you.
I was alone in my bedroom. My three daughters, son-in-laws, and their children were out in the living room with their mother. I wanted to be by myself.
My life had shrunk into a cold existence. For many years, I had watched pornography, so much, that any loving behaviors that I tried to show were usually replaced by hypersensitive feelings and actions.
I loved everyone in the next room, but I still felt an isolation because my emotional state of mind was lustful. Cold feelings from this hurtful emotion snuff out any sense of caring. I was frigid. I was so tired.
I read a proverb the other day that motivated me to write the following poem.
Fire asked water, why
Do you need a container?
So, I feel your heat.
God asked the soul, why
Do you need a robust heart?
So I feel your joy.
–D. R. Criswell
Today, I have been sober for 16 months. Now, I experience deep feelings of gratitude. My heart feels God’s fire.
If someone asked me if pornography was worth it, I would say yes. The passion that I experience today is a magnificent obsession. Porn has no comparison.
Thanks,
Dale
P.S. My family loves having me with them every night. My baby grandchildren love making airplanes and coloring with me.
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Great to read, congrats on the 16 months, that’s a huge accomplishment!
Thanks you, Dhammic Writer.
That’s pretty twisted to suggest the porn was worth it. I think the world could do without porn. Frankly, if I was God, I would destroy the world right now (because of Internet porn).
Porn is not worth it. However, because I experienced its devastating power in my life, I am more grateful for God than I would had been if I had not sinned. Consider the woman that wept at Jesus’ feet in the house of the Pharisee Simon. Jesus told Simon that the woman loves much because she has been forgiven of much. I may not be the chief of sinners as Paul the Apostle, but I come pretty close. I thank God for my experience with pornography. I have deep heart felt love for Jesus Christ my Lord. He died on the cross for me.
What a beautiful post, from start to finish! Congratulations on everything you have achieved over the past 16 months. The contrast between where you were then and now is very moving. I’m so happy for you Dale.
Jane
Thank you, Jane.
I read another blogger’s advice about posting regularly, 1-3 times a day or no less than once a week. I have tried the 1 -3 times per day. Not successful in the goal; however, I am more aware of my thoughts posted in my blog. I have had energizing moments. Jane, I have been in the hospital two times in the last 5 weeks for a heart condition. This is the reason for my relapse in posting. Thanks, Jane. I appreciate you. Dale
I was really pleased to read your thoughts. The posts you reblog from other sites are inspiring, but your own words are even more so. You’re a good man who gives strength and solice to others, and I thank you for it.
I truly hope your health recovers.
Jane
Congratulations on your 16 months!
It is only through resistance that strength is developed. Keep getting stronger!
Regards,
Clifford T Mitchem
Advocare Distributor
Nutrition + Fitness = Health
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Thank you, Clifford. I like what you said, “only through resistance that strength is developed.” This is very helpful.
Dale