Many times, I was online for 4 hours. I felt shame, guilt, and depression.
If you are addicted to porn, you will sink deeper and deeper into the muck, unless you change.
As you read every word in this short post, can you just picture the same things happening to you?
Take all the time you need to
heal emotionally. Moving on
doesn’t take a day. It takes a
lot of little steps to be able to break
free of your broken self.
Many times, I was online for 4 hours or more. I felt shame, guilt, and depression.
Did I hate pornography? Yes, however, I still felt a burning urge to ride the erotic waves of porn, just one more site. But, I didn’t want to do it.
I experienced hell online and cried for relief. I felt shame, depression, and self-loathing. Despair sapped the strength out of me. Yet, I still felt the pull. I wanted more.
I began to hate what I had become. I felt worthless. Life had lost its meaning. Paradox: The misery that I felt caused me to get more porn to relieve the pain. There I was again looking at nude models and surfing stripteases sites and much more.
However, I experienced the feelings. I’m sick and tire of the pain. I’ve had it! I can’t go on like this any more.
I had come to the point where I had enough. I then qualified to walk the road to recovery.
Was I ready?
Yes, I qualified for significant changes in my life. However, I had to be patient with myself. Change would not be immediate. The change process took years. Everyday got better and better.
I centered my focus on a purpose-centered recovery. I allowed my divine purpose to guide me.
For you, what was the take-away value of my story? What meaning did your receive.
Take charge and start the change process, now.
Find a therapists. Attend a 12 step program that give support while you are finding freedom.