Pornography: What was the secret to stopping?

Many times, I was online for 4 hours. I felt shame, guilt, and depression.

If you are addicted to porn, you will sink deeper and deeper into the muck, unless you change.

As you read every word in this short post, can you just picture the same things happening to you?

 Take all the time you need to

heal emotionally. Moving on

doesn’t take a day. It takes a

lot of little steps to be able to break

free of your broken self.

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Many times, I was online for 4 hours or more. I felt shame, guilt, and depression.

Did I hate pornography? Yes, however, I still felt a burning urge to ride the erotic waves of porn, just one more site. But, I didn’t want to do it.

I experienced hell online and cried for relief. I felt shame, depression, and self-loathing. Despair sapped the strength out of me. Yet, I still felt the pull. I wanted more.

I began to hate what I had become.  I felt worthless. Life had lost its meaning.  Paradox: The misery that I felt caused me to get more porn to relieve the pain. There I was again looking at nude models and surfing stripteases sites and much more.

However, I experienced the feelings.  I’m sick and tire of the pain. I’ve had it! I can’t go on like this any more.

I had come to the point where I had enough.  I then qualified to walk the road to recovery.

Was I ready?

Yes, I qualified for significant changes in my life. However, I had to be patient with myself. Change would not be immediate.  The change process took years.  Everyday got better and better.

I centered my focus on a purpose-centered recovery.  I allowed my divine purpose to guide me.

For you, what was the take-away value of my story?  What meaning did your receive.

Take charge and start the change process, now.

Find a therapists. Attend a 12 step program that give support while you are finding freedom.

Thanks,

Dale

Published by: curepornaddiction

In the year 1971 I became a store manager at age 19. I discovered I had a gift for mentoring. I gave one on one coaching, instruction and teaching with ease. And, I loved it. However, I had a problem that held me back from achieving my full potential. I was addicted to porn. When I was going through my puberty years in life, I found pornography (adult magazines) in my Dad's closet. I was hooked. I had my ups and downs throughout my life: Ups, when I was off of porn and using my gift: and, Downs, when I was using porn. Porn captured my attention, holding me back. I found the secrets to breaking free from porn. Like anyone else, I have to work at keeping my emotions positive, every day, to stay free. Limiting emotions--fear, doubt, hate, lust, sloth, pride, any emotion that kills joy. Joy is the ultimate weapon against porn. You have it; porn loses its hold on you. I dedicate this blog to those who are looking for ways to end pornography in their life. To Your Peace, Power and Plenty, Dale P.S. The picture above is not me. The photo represents all families free from pornography.

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