A Fetish for Rare Moments

One of the greatest traps of a recovering sex addict is to make a “fetish of rare moments” (Chambers, 1935, p. 116).

Living in the extremes of pornography addiction eventually brought me to my knees. I realized that I was powerless over my addiction.

I reached out to God as I know Him.  I felt a flood of inspiration. I experienced fantastic feelings of euphoria. I received insight that I could overcome with my Higher Power (divine strength).  I had asked God for help.

For the next two weeks, euphoric emotions poured out of me in ways that I cannot really explain. I knew I could overcome pornography. I had surrendered my will.  However, I had made joyful emotions into a fetish.

Because I lived for those rare moments, I set myself up for a relapse.

As the days went by, I experienced less and less of the euphoria and a pull back to pornography.

Did I have to experience euphoria to overcome?

No.

Trust was the answer.

Wellness meant doing what was right for me. Being sober became my number one focus.  All good things followed a life of wholeness.

 

Reference

Chambers, O. (1935). My utmost for his highest. (32nd printing). p. 116. Dodd, Mead, & Company, Inc.

Published by: curepornaddiction

In the year 1971 I became a store manager at age 19. I discovered I had a gift for mentoring. I gave one on one coaching, instruction and teaching with ease. And, I loved it. However, I had a problem that held me back from achieving my full potential. I was addicted to porn. When I was going through my puberty years in life, I found pornography (adult magazines) in my Dad's closet. I was hooked. I had my ups and downs throughout my life: Ups, when I was off of porn and using my gift: and, Downs, when I was using porn. Porn captured my attention, holding me back. I found the secrets to breaking free from porn. Like anyone else, I have to work at keeping my emotions positive, every day, to stay free. Limiting emotions--fear, doubt, hate, lust, sloth, pride, any emotion that kills joy. Joy is the ultimate weapon against porn. You have it; porn loses its hold on you. I dedicate this blog to those who are looking for ways to end pornography in their life. To Your Peace, Power and Plenty, Dale P.S. The picture above is not me. The photo represents all families free from pornography.

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