Viewing Pornography causes me to physically feel better for a day. Masturbating also relieves tension for a day. However, a day or two later, I experience anxiety and depression. I have to double up on my meds to rid myself of fearful and hurtful feelings I have about myself.
The other day, I said, “Wow! Do I really want to live like this?” I heard a resounding, “NO!”
I stopped viewing porn. However, masturbation still makes me hypersensitive and impulsive in everything that I do. I also feel anxious and depressed a day or two after masturbation. Sometimes, my anti depression meds do not help me after a bout with masturbating.
I am doing better and keeping my hands off myself. If I feel good in my genital area, I just leave it like that, feeling good. In 10 to 15 minutes the intense feelings subside.
I just wanted to share with you my Ah Ha moments.
Dale
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